slices of moments of pieces of me

the happy thoughts i was planning on sharing yesterday will be postponed for another moment, as things move faster than the ships can follow…
long story short, i just learned that i will be changing ships in a week and somehow i have the feeling, it will be even sooner…
last week i was just thinking about how things don’t seem to work out the way they usually do with me… i’m usually a lucky kid and it just didn’t feel right, that i was in this place where nothing worked well, so i really had a feeling that something will change pretty soon. and so it did. yesterday i got the news that i will be changing ships to go to a totally different constellation, with a totally unknown crew from a new catering company and do something i am not used to: the same 1-week cruise over and over again with a german full-charter.
and i have mixed feeling about it…on one hand i am sad to leave home and all the dear people here and all the adventures that we had ahead of us..
on the other hand i am kind of excited about the new adventure and i have a good feeling somewhere underneath the break-up sadness. after all, it was all to silent and simple here to be true…i had enrolled for an adventure and somehow this was a dead end. i am not set to settle down anyhow and anywhere and maybe it’s just for the better that i am leaving here before i grow roots in a ground that is not solid anyhow.
the funny thing is, in the first weeks i was all aware of this instability, but somewhere along the way i forgot that nothing lasts forever here and felt like this could happen to other people, but not to me…i am home and this ships name is written on my forehead.
well – reality check, missy…you are just a pawn too and you’d better watch you back, ’cause no-one is irreplaceable