slices of moments of pieces of me

plot, in short: changed ship, from Beauty to The Beast. Transformed Beast into a more bearable creature, still it feels like something’s wrong.
and in the last 48 hours it dawned on me: this is not how i was supposed to end up. i was out to have the time of my life, travel the world and live great experiences, not rotten in a tin can bouncing between Passau and Budapest without my own cabin or even a decent meal or internet connection… and on top of that, i do not have to answer to the absurd demands of a head office that does not offer anything in return. first of all because we are out of the age of slavery and second of all because i do not depend on them for anything in the world.
now, after the basic challenge of putting this ship on the desired direction has been somewhat completed (there are some significant limits to one persons capacities…), i see absolutely no reason to be treated with this amount of disrespect and given the fact that i do not in the least enjoy my time here anymore nor have any satisfaction in doing this job anymore, i have decided that something has to change. and i am seriously considering quitting as an option, not because i am to weak to resist for one whole season, just because i don’t have to put up with any of this crap and i don’t feel like wasting my time like this when i know i could be way better of.
so, I decided I have to enjoy my life, whether this company likes it or not..effective immediately.